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© Copyright 2005 Lawrence A. McFadden • All rights reserved
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follow your heart learn to be true learn i love you know your charms find your grace reach peace every step a dance each breath an inspiration in the wake of your day dream
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like the life of a leaf i wander and roam finding my way home welcome home underfeet a leaf under stood undercovers under wonder through the blue enchantment of you being amused with a smile across the sky as wide as your mind widemind under wonder a hum a chant a prayer a naked laugh aware to rest here with you because you understand the life of a leaf
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in the sky in the quiet chaos of the clouds i am asked through whose eyes do i see i relive every consequence of my life in my exploration of life as i walk this forest floor of the underworld i am like the bare trees in my poverty of empty arms reaching reaching for an answer more more than i don't know my question of the sky i dream of all these years in preparation of what responsibility i am not allowed to seek into the future
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yes again i could not see the harm in my wants i tried to become something other than human and wanted to be something i saw others become instead of being myself
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i am weak with an inner strength like a bear in winter hides like the stars in the sky my strength is there with you look for power and i will be gone look for love and love endlessly in my dreams of you this bliss streams from my eyes in a river to this world within the words i love you
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use me my muse i find you in my thoughts here and now i find you in my heart and soul blessed with bliss i feel you and i feel forever i feel you feel me our esctasy use me my muse my joy my shadow my sisters create me
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you are the chime of the wind the spirit of the flock the medicine of my path i know you've understood you know i've done the best i could may i touch you with your love and feel for forever in the moments we are together when we are the bridge of our being
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say i hear you don't listen i feel your words from every direction and distance i watch what i say and what it might mean and know there is no silence left unsaid no word unspoken through these worlds of words each illusion every time i hear listen here
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like a child i was reminded by the snow tonight of when i was with you when the snow was our light and i felt the calm the stillness the sound of falling flake and i cannot help the grin i get with a beard full of the hush of snow this bliss this gift this bow i saw god many times again for the first time i was shown creation in silence in rhyme in presence i rejoice in you the voice the spirit the snow
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april showers broken arrows love is the greatest power there is nothing sacred in hate the rain the fire darkness light the truth the spirit the might of life a wisdom calling do you know what you have done
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i do not remember the sound of the first drum i did not see the first rainbow yet every time the beat occurs the sight appears everlasting and sacred again i hear the flutter of feathers i felt again within my being the dove your spirit of peace and love and prophesy you give me rainbow tribe eyes medicine of the bow and healing hands full of hope and braided desire to seek the light the beam through her dreams through this world through the bridge of our being one of her children one of her drums one of her doves
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so long i've been gone out of my head out of my words out of this world in my dreams where snow is fire and the word soul is a verb spoken with desire call me crazy of course i'm insane taught to fear and dread to heal instead listen to your heart hear your love root she is calling you with love with light with peace within the spirit of earth
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in the woods of the soul in the forest of our church where time is an eternity each day i keep close to the fire i keep close to my heart and have great talk and laughter and i will dream in ecstasy tonight in the colors of my life in the sounds of my love in flight to heal my wounds my strife my brothers my sisters on this journey a path of medicine and light
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to soar in spirit with the blackbird raven crow and buzzard birds of majick and mystery birds of creation and rebirth to those who have died many times deep within my cry in here clear and alive and i wander why in wonder in awe sometimes awefully glad awefully sad awefully mad awefully blessed to die these lives these ego deaths to empty me to be with spirit within selflessly in purpose and creation a celebration of feathers
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gone i stay behind and tend the fire as evening mends the afternoon i think of you and my tears become jewels of solitude and these words are heart and soul close to you as light as a feather as you read this perhaps i will hear the morning dove and again think of you at dusk and at dawn you can see my smile my gleam i sing this song to you as we rejoice on the path we share
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mother god in vien christ i fell in love with everyone of you i want to hear every variation i want to feel every vibration i see our love in every dream that comes true your tiny truths the spirit that helps me through my days sister jesus please teach me with your wisdom what is hidden in the darkness of our lives may we light the world again with love
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back in again in the in sane asylum and the first crazy to talk to me tells how venus has a moon in the shape of a teardrop i needed the rain to wash me i needed pain to stop me black ice the spirit did not leave me and a late snowflake melted on the tip of my nose one flew east one flew west all are blessed in the cuckoo's nest Amen
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look up where trees wander and circle the sky without sacrifice i would not be hear within this womb this seed in the earth in deed your garden of dreams my life still nourished with your ecstasy till
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i swallowed the black sky the moon a pearl upon my tongue melting me into your dream i may not sleep this night nor the next and i did not sleep the last did i miss the early morning mists where there are no definitions where there are no meanings where only reason can go in a time of truth i feel this moment becomes every moment every where when i know i don't know i hear you'll see
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i remember my mind white with roar in a vessel designed for war deep in crave far from shore still this bright spring day haunts me more the want of you i am not sure my strength is yours i ask myself my whys to the poet truth is my guide i sigh another ocean my path of yours the depths of devotion
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intuitively i throw away everything in my head like a garage sale sleeping with only truth and compassion looking for love i wander all day the emptiness and wonder of all night alone i make god laugh trying to figure out why i have this need for you to complete me superman underdog both and neither when i see you dream the sight brings me peace one heart when i wait for you to awaken this time brings me light one might smile truely filling my eyes with glee deeply your laugh nourishing me when i dream you are real spiralling with me in this dream need must i roam alone
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the edge of knowledge where warriors worry certainly a uncertainty like a tattoo trust like a tool love like life laugh you are the wild orchid the purple iris the dandylion unique in every shadow every ray every step along your way each peek to dream and awaken to dream and awaken to dream and awaken to become a song to be sung a hum in the perfection of light and the surrender of the night
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your lesson of many sessions a habitual ritual of light and love the reach of peace the worth of verse the proof of truth the math of path heal the feel feel the heal glow the soul say the ray speak the peek map the sap here hear art the heart ask the task mine the mind seek the peaks walk the talk strive to thrive this is why i search this is why i wander this is why i wonder this is why my name is a flame
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happily on the outskirts close to the thread the fringe of your dream i can enhance the chance the creation the trance the mystery that sustains the spirit the love the light within with kindness i can find ways to heal with joy i can find ways to celebrate with you i can find ways to awaken
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these full moon summer solstice nights are teaching me the right ways to be wrong the crazy ways weakness can be strong and i become suspicious of my suspicions i have held for so long in the darkness of my heart yes a cry is heard from within to face the moon and taste a tear for this tiny night a shake of the vibe of my life a hum that i am not done a sum of all my fears in the leap of light from the sun to the moon deep into my eyes deep into the night deep into delight deep into flight
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you can see in my words i seek the light with my words i seek the spirit mother may i this blessed art of heart and feather i hear my father call strong and distant timelessly sacredly knowingly now as ancient as the alphabet i feel my soul feel my bliss i feel you can so clearly see me you laugh at yourselves
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