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Some selected collected poems -----------------------------(1989-1994) Lawrence A. McFadden
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bow to thee taller tree i want to stay but you never leave in the frosts that chill the times i feel a warm breeze when my stare is the wind through your limbs and the rustle of the leaf are many birds in hand yet your need only grows inside your shade and the embrace is only as strong as one receives in the splendor of solitude i too need a loneliness of the soul to grow and blossom as i will bring the water wind and fire from the mother of earth _________________________________
lightning of light your eyes know my delight the rumble of speech is just a peep from where i sigh with distance for you to reach my latest leap with might i keep in touch of the lust of i lover very much must the lover of such keep tokens or polished promises spoken between the grace of the space of two lives to be a woman to be a man and to be a man to be a woman of the space of two lives spoken between the grace keep tokens or polished promises must the lover of such of i lover very much of the lust in touch with might i keep my latest leap for you to reach with distance from where i sigh is just a peep the rumble of speech your eyes know my delight lightning of light _________________________________
fantasies only last overnight dreams make life there is a bond of wife to every experience of the night the first touch of the morning is greater than any word or sight i am not ashamed of my might though very well hidden the brightest light there is a penance i must do for those will never be forgotten and how the sex may be great the empty feeling grates and love hates for the sake of sorrow let there be tomorrows the more special the day the greater we can play and the louder the thunder of our hurray _________________________________
i am a man child of the moon as with you rise my dreams brighten and beam all i do is to follow the stream around and through the many trees of wonder to greet the shadow for there is shade where we once laid our halos and danced the timeless page of another day of simple touches touching the greatest of charms to be in each other's arms with no broken wares let us share in how we bare the nakedness of our soul _________________________________
in communion i drink your ink with no pitchfork or halo's wink i know the now is knots of knock knock all woman can indeed be a woman be free yet with many trees i grow weary of please the nakedness i write appears solemnly to those who do not wish do not drink from the chalice everyday of the heart's palace and the easiest promises can never be kept i slept with your thoughts and i was taught silence sometimes is a reply in kind and i awake fresh for i too am flesh to reach too in touch i spill my ink blind with closed eyes in the gentlenesses of the time of the moon rise _________________________________
ICEBURGS MOP DIRTY FLOORS aye mate me broccoli the captain stalked with the staff into my wife the tear pickles am i a frayed knot of silence i knew the bull of thorns who hurts a rose i was was given a feather and the honey of the dead trees are my ancestors dancing in harm earthma'am mistletoe rainbow of many colors draw from the bowl, knot of the dread soul too i am crazy cloud of thunder apache of popes who cannot afford hats of hobbits the lack of speech can chew ribbons of steel into little kings babylon of noble earth was given the gift of a rock from the moon _________________________________
my room spheres another being cockroachs of time that never touched sewers of seawater yet seek the perfection of filthy water in the orgasms with pedestal squats or not impaled on forks rotisserie of dripping blood eater in flesh of babylon why couple the parasite when i want nothing in life nature can't give to me _________________________________
always the bottom button of the totem cannot be ripped by vested bests a pool of calcium and corpuscles swims the nigger concrete as i chewed with broken teeth eating my elbows and knees to free the chains from me sharpen glass shards of my shattered skull on the stonetable of soul the window of cruelest wealth denial kiss the mother complete as i arch dreads talon shredding the womb torn brain to heal the bark of trees _________________________________
zenglish yen coax yellow pigtail of sir john the nobellion novelty to servant an ancient ancestor given an ancient symbol hidden the clue of many words and the value phrased for everyone the zen masters laugh in perfect english _________________________________
the art opening the opening of her eyes wondered up to me both touching we felt goodness within the stark bite of eavesdropped sight and the shadows on the wall hung the heaviest painting of panting breaths mine or yours could have easily slipped as we tasted lips of wine in a whirl fool grin of the world of fools spinning carts of concentration in the darts of conversation mingled in the gentle peace of art some where in our hearts shared in a where somewhere other then here home alone again in the darkness of strife that separates art from life _________________________________
P.S. someone is chopping down a tree to build a church someone is loading up all weapons to heal all hurt someone is murdering a doctor and rewarding a thief someone is telling our prophets to cash in belief someone poisons the food so everyone can eat and stealing from the poor the trash at our feats someone created a heaven to destroy the earth someone fills us with fear at the thought of something queer someone stacks the deck in every shuffle for a new hand someone made all human worth the bottom line of the land someone said there is no wrong with just throwing it all away and the poor and the sick are the taxes no one can pay someone aids every disease with the need for more greed and the ones who have the most are crying the loudest and why do we wait to do nothing with our lives _________________________________
the weather makers sacred clowns and human beans quietly left town today no one saw they came otherwise why else did the weather change and why else did you have to laugh and why do you believe in a dream _________________________________
allah i lay my head on the stump of the cherry tree for the sword of islam to rescue me with my eyes behind the veil in privacy i too vow to the crescent moons the western star is a dark wanderer as flock is to the shepherd and alms to the poor and sick of greed _________________________________
worst summer storm i ever testified everyone was up and gone to be well fed or well bred apostrophies i stayed so long as i gave and gave and took my life to the empty church of belief in myself _________________________________
rural road indiana long ago in a snowfall stall called a dog of the past up ahead led by a flock of sparrows i felt again the arrow in my heart at the death of a pet in the middle of the road now covered in snow walking came into sight might i've known what was being shown in today's light my first face of death now walks my pet led by a flock of sparrows i coasted to a stop his ears still flopped and i knew not how to talk to a flock or whether to walk the country roads in dead silence of a snowfall called my dog to my side yes he died now my spirit guide _________________________________
the bow wrapped in red robe probes like a finger my guts tighten hard like a nut a shell to the broken glass hell that once were my emotions now a feeling of the bow healing the scars and melting the shards that many years of broken dreams only hardened perhaps when the gut glass is gone the many arrows in my heart will take flight with the sorrows of my life _________________________________
the sparrows took flight in flock and with rapidly wild wings talked the darting motion of a needle darning the tears of my heart together with the gift that sorrow tore apart and opened my soul to where only the wounded go now i am trusted with many hearts who can open mine again to flow with sorrow the gift that makes the heart flutter and talk how the arrows of my heart are now the sparrows with rapidly wild wings taking flight in flock _________________________________
in his time my grandfather caruso would close his barber shop and go cry like a baby with the clowns everytime the opera came to town to lift his tears of sorrow from the face of life today i love to cry my grandfathers tears like a baby given a gift from the grateful dead _________________________________
i remember being a jesus freak when the love of sex and drugs really rocked and rolled to us yet not stoned and to be religious meant to believe in the belief of everything as our prayers were our lives and i felt as i do now when all i share has to last the rest of my life
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